爱一个人，不是应该要付出的吗？

爱一个人不是要付出吗？ 

看到他受伤了，想看看自己能为他做些什么，想送/寄药物给他，怕他伤口发炎...

但他拒绝了...

看到他电话没钱了，想看是否能帮他进钱，因为他在学校要进钱很麻烦，

而且我不想跟他失去联络，但他拒绝了...

不管我想为他做些什么，都被他拒绝了...

以前的我， 就是因为付出得不够多，不懂得珍惜，

才会错过一段爱情...

我终于找到一个我爱的人.

就是因为我爱他，想为他做些我能为他做的东西...

却都被拒绝了...

为什么？

因为我已是很好了吗？

荒唐！我原本就不好，如果我好，就不会有人离开我~

当我的好意都被拒绝的时候，我会觉得自己很没用...

这是事实嘛！

你离我好远，好远...

每一天的我，都在想着你...担心着你...

其实，那样的感觉一点都不好受...

只希望你能赶快出现在我面前...

好让我能安心一点...

但是，机会总是那么渺茫...

我也认了...

只能等...

需要等多久呢？

我不知道...

能等多久呢？

我也不知道...



现在的我，连付出的资格都没有...

除了等，我还能做些什么？

.......

无言...

心情差到不知该说什么...

I miss you.

It's ady 12.35am but I still can't fall asleep.

=(

yeap, INSOMNIA.

There are few issues.

He fell down and hurted himself today...

went to the doctor for few stitches..

I'm still very worry honestly...

Besides, he's gonna sit for his PKS 3 (school exam) starts from tomorrow onwards.

I wonder how's his study progress ?

slow and steady? 

hmmm.. =X

I'm worry that I'll gonna be the main reason which influence his studies. =(

Moreover, I miss him like hell.

I keep on thinking to message him or even call him.. 

but my mind stopped me to do so. 

ALYSSA, HE HAS TO STUDY! DON'T DISTURB.

sobz...

but I miss him seriously. 

I might only get to see him next year? OMG.

How the hell am I going to survive? 

I'm having a bf bt it's like without him for few months.

I'm working hard on it, to convince myself few months will pass very fast.

-.-

suffering...

I'm having complicated feelings now, hard to explain. 

Of course, I love him. That silly boy~

=')

but I miss him too much seriously.

He has Patrick with my perfume smell to cuddle when he misses me.

I have nothing. 

........

I really hope that time would past faster in order to let me get a chance to see him earlier. 

sobz...

I miss him till I can't fall asleep..

Tears gonna acc me and make my pillow wet b4 I get to fall asleep. 

Goodnite. 

Happy 1st Month Anniversary ♥

Babe boy, 

Happy 1st Month Anniversary~! ♥

Although we can't meet up and celebrate together but still we'll celebrate together on the fon..

Alright? =)

After you graduate, we'll become even closer I know..

Silly boy, I may not be the perfect girl for you but I'll get better days by days...

okay?

As I promised.♥

I'm  not a good gf totally earlier, but I told myself not to hurt you...

I duno y... I really scared to hurt ur feelings... =X

hmmmm =)

I wana say I LOVE YOU once again

&

Good Luck for tml's PKS 3 =D

Giv u a big kiss...

Mmmmmmmuackzzz!!!!




HEHEHEHE =D

17/7 our day being together ♥

wrote it while I'm having class... Miss him too muchiieee~ ♥

Wish we are like these two fingers, stick together and never leave each other  ♥

with lots of love. 

I love HIM ♥

Yup, I'm talking about my boyfie ♥

try to guess who is he? =P

let's give him a name... 

erm...

KC then =)

He's a cute guy...

a guy who is like a big kid...

a guy who loves me so muchie...

a guy who gets jealous easily...

a guy who become happy easily; sad easily...

a guy who loves chocolates...

a guy who loves purple colour...

a guy who loves his family so much...

hmmmm...

I miss him so much...

since the day I met him in school and after i left,

I started to miss him...

days by days and I'm missing him more ><

I miss the moment when I lean on his shoulder...

sooo comfortable...

I miss everything of him!

Now, my Patrick is with him and he treats it better than me~~~

he hugs Patrick every nite ... 

OMG! I dun even hav this privilege!

I dun care... I'll want him to pay me back when I get to see him in future.

*evil laugh*

I promised him, I'll be a better girlfriend in future..

I Love Him ♥

This photo is taken by Nicol but this photo is specially for KC ♥



AC♥KC